Tuesday, August 25, 2009

The insanity continues

You know, there's a lot of pop-psychology out there about having a positive attitude and the 'laws of attraction'... you know you put good energy out into the universe and the universe rewards you with your heart's desire.

I'm here to tell you that that whole philosophy is crap. Not 100% crap, of course... but like 70% crap. Sometimes shit happens. And when it does, sometimes it feels good to just complain. So complain I will. Trying to suck it up and forcing myself to keep a good attitude was just driving me bonkers. I've felt a LOT better since venting about all this garbage at work.

I was feeling pretty good this morning. I got to sleep in and spend some time at Starbucks just relaxing. I really needed that. Because my two kid classes were canceled, I only ended up having my one new class in the evening. I showed up a couple hours early to prep the class and as soon as I walked in, the manager approached me. "Your two students.... they will study on Saturday."
"Ok" I said... more power to them I thought.
"You will teach them 9am to 10:30am, and 10:45 to 12:15"
Um, I don't think so! "I already have a class on Saturday morning."
"No, you will teach these students... we will find another teacher for your class."

GAAAHHH! So now, I'm back to having the two kids, and my old class is going to a totally different teacher. At least this time I get some advanced warning. But not even one class to tell the kids I'm leaving. You know, these are kids that I've been teaching for a year and am *finally* starting to make some progress with. Six months ago I would have rejoiced heartily to learn that they were being given to someone else. But now that I've invested so much it sucks that boom it's over, just like that.

In the mean time, with no kid classes on Monday-Friday my schedule is looking a lot more open. And of course they canceled three of my evening classes, which lightens my load that much more. I mentioned to the office staff today that since the kid classes got rescheduled, it's no problem to teach the evening class. But they won't call the student to un-cancel. That would be losing face.

But somehow it's not losing face to have no organizational or management skills whatsoever... no, as long as they keep smiling, everything's fine fine fine.

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IamSusie said...

It seems to me that they are taking advantage of you and the other teachers because you all are under contract and they want the money from the registering students. I don't think it is at all negative to see what it is that you want in your life and to fight to have it. Teaching these kid classes is not at all to your strength, and spending time on things like this that aren't our natural strengths is soul crushing.

You have only a short time left! Hang in there!

Jeannette said...

I was told today that I have to teach 3 classes Saturday, even though it wasnt on my schedule and they throw classes at me like this all the time. I thought of your blog.

Rebel said...

Thanks Susie - I am definitely trying to use this as a 'things to avoid in the future' experience.

Jeannette - I'm sorry you're going through the same thing, but I'm happy you told me about it. It helps to know I'm not the only one dealing with this kind of disorganization.

Batty said...

There's positive thinking for the sake of being happy and relaxed. But this whole laws of attraction thing? It gives me the creeps. if you have the right attitude, the universe will give you what you want. The corollary is that people who have cancer, who lose a loved one, who lose their job in the recession, are to blame for their own misfortune because they just had the wrong attitude.
Ummm, no. Complete and utter crap.